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January 28th, 2005

03:48 pm
ok ive had enough immature jealousy running rampant on my journal. its so ridiculous, did you think we wouldnt find out who you are?
anyways on to better things senior tea was great today those women did an amazing job. i am really going to miss my class. this week was one of the worst weeks ever but its ok bc its over and the weekend is here. im going to the fair with a lot of my friends and my boyfriend who is actually my age. it was hard but i managed to snag one who wasnt 10 yrs my senior. ok im done being mean.
yea so hopefully tomorrow night will be a ton of fun with lisa have a good weekend everyone. and no use to comment on my journal anymore bc will just delete it.
Current Mood:

busy

January 17th, 2005

05:28 pm - at least its a 4 day week
this weekend was uneventful but nice at least its a 4 day week. i hate reading tale of two cities but its unavoidable. i also have to study... i dont know how i am gonna make it in college i am so lazy. so lazy that i dont even feel like finishing this journal.

January 10th, 2005

06:36 pm - this is a test

Which O.C. Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

Yay at least im not the drunk one
Current Mood:

sad

January 1st, 2005

11:01 am - JOANNAS A LOSER
brought in 2004 with lisa and kept the tradition this year too. i always have fun with her i have spending alot of time w/ lisa over the break and i cant complain she is soo fun, but i would like to know why joanna and becca especially keep blowing me off. oh well. last night was annoying. people at kings are such losers, noone wants to throw a party poor mariella attempted but there just wernt enough ppl there. alot of younger kids which isnt really my thing. i like them so long as there are other ppl my age but accept for me lisa mariella and curt there wasnt. oh well dinner was good anyways. matt comes home tomorrow, i miss him alot but i know he doesnt want to come back he finaly gets to hang out with normal guys, its gonna be hard ( especially with the musical) . they dont have mood swings and act like women like the ones here. or at least the ones at kings. but 5 months left. im a little sad but not. i just wish i knew were i was going to college. back to the musical and JOANNA let me quote you again you want to hang otu with ppl you dont normally get to see am i confused or is bethany not in the musical w/ you...... besides that you will have practice every waking hour until april when we will have 2 months left together.. just wanted to point that out... yea im bitter. i want to go to opa JO's not invited. jk i miss you
Current Mood:

okay

December 15th, 2004

04:45 pm - i like it when nora bites nick in the head
well i heard back from my first college.. i got accepted to FSU. not my first choice but hey at least i know i have a future its actually really comforting. but i was in a funk yesterday and alittle bit today lisa understands. i just feel like i i have gained too uch weight and while everyone denies it its visibly there. i wish i had the will power to eat right, or even have an eating disorder. just kidding... hmm oh well i will get back into tennis heavily and thats how i'll lose the weight or i can dance like napolean, thats how he got sucha hot bod. who cares, i dont, i dont even know why i wrote this. joanna is weird. oh i am tired.
Current Mood:

weird

December 13th, 2004

06:00 am
if you dont know my cousins are living w/ my family while their mom is in rehab. sigh. i wish i could perform miracles. these girls have been through so much. the older one especially. i am so proud of her and admire her insight and discipline. she comes off as lazy but really is so burdened. she realizes whats at stake these next couple of months and is encouraging to her mom but her sister is too immature to realize the seriousness. on top of that she is a selfish bratty 6th grader that cant see past what will be more convenient for her here and now. but at some point we all went through that mentality. i wish i could do more for them. i wish i could safely reassure them that all the suffering they are going through now is not all for nothing. i wish i could secure a successful and happy future for the both of them. i am so done worrying about family pollitics and the stupid crap that is insignificant. i am so blessed. i want to do everything i can in the interest of those 2 girls screw anyone else who feels differently...... i only wish i knew when they are lying.
Current Mood:

drained

December 5th, 2004

06:26 pm - dont you wish weekends were longer
SO wow this weekend lasted all of 5 min. Friday night Austins bday dinner (which was so fun i love the girls) and then finding neverland which was so cute. After that was fun accept didnt turn out the way i planned if you know what im talking about you know what i mean. Some people (and its funny non that were involved in any possible way) need to get a life and stop being such a huge hypocrite in everything they do. but anyways now that i am done stooping. bakesale was fun got to hang out w/ austin lisa Kat Doug and higgs. it was so great just like last year accept not as good bands. then today spend all day relaxing w/ this really cute boy, playing tennis and at the beach. and all that happened in 5 min so now i have school tomorrow and i hate it. i have to go to writing for college 5 times before i get a break. im crying just thinking about it. PLEASE i am begging you if you consider taking that class dont. ok jo needs to tell me about her cute sat boy and becca needs to hang out with me bc i dont know where she is ever. probably in a sweat shop working hard for the money.
Current Mood:

chipper

November 29th, 2004

04:12 pm
i was doing my devotions tonight and it was about everyone being created for a purpose and the earth being created by God to be perfect for us and how your whole life is mapped out before your born. and while i already knew that i started to realize there are many people in my life who are there for a purpose and i am taking them for granted. I feel horrible about this because i believe that is something is offered to you, you shouldnt waste i. how much have i wasted so far. so even if none of this makes sense to anyone who reads this i dont care bc it does to me and i am ready to make an adjustment.
on to lighter things i feel like im getting sick and i am the worst tennis player ever. i have played forever and i am horrible. its so embarrassing. the holidays are just around the corner mrs plummer reminded me of them w/ her christmas music. hmmm what to get ppl. this year is really flying and while it makes me excited i am sad at the same time. today i went to the websites of the colleges i applied to, to see what organizations they had and i never thought i would ever get to the day where i was thinking about what clubs to join in college! its crazy! but i am so ready. even if i have to leave behind some people i love very much. I will truly be starting a new chapter of my life. but thats the way it goes. off to be a bookworm but i love to read i cant help it.
Current Mood:

nostalgic
Current Music: daughters -john mayer

November 27th, 2004

08:55 am
Thanksgiving is over. my whole family came over and matt and his parents joined us. my cousins are living with us now. i wish i knew how to help them or how to make them trust me. they have gone through so much and i worry that sometimes i do more harm to them than good because i can be harsh. oh well i will just try to do my best. As for my friends becca's sister is in town and Austin's Ed is in town and JO and Lisa are away. i miss the girls but i hope they are having fun. I have been spending time with matt this week which i never mind but i know he is getting sick of me and misses his friends or something i dont really know because he has a problem communicating his thoughts. so thats my guess. haha. so sad we lost to glades last night. sorry guys i know your dissappointed but you had a great season and thats a lot to be thankful for. it was cold yesterday so christmas is in the air! i am excited. i think i need to get a job for this christmas. ok well i guess there is nothing else exciting w/ me.
Current Mood:

flirty
Current Music: Incubus miss you

November 18th, 2004

03:23 pm - ehhhhhhh
What is YOUR problem?!?! i wish i could read minds when i wanted to.

What is happening Why cant i be happy
Current Mood:

disappointed

November 1st, 2004

05:17 pm
i just wrote a whole journal and it got erased bottom line im in a bad mood and i have had a bad day and im sorry to all the people i poisoned w/ my attitude problem. i want to get out of here. i think im PMSing. i just want some flowers
Current Mood:

pissed off

October 12th, 2004

07:52 pm - i feel like a piece of glitter
so...ok senior year happened already. it weird i feel so old. today diana t came into our eng class and even though i didnt really listen to what she was saying about college all i could think about was wow she is at duke and last year she was here.. she is on her own now and next year i will be too... basically. gross. so finished uf early decision application and i am not in but jo said something interesting to me today she siad next year it will be me her and jamie L. all sitting in a dorm room together crying bc jo wants to be in boston jamie wants to be in nc (i think) and i want to be.....not in fla hahaha im so flickle. but she is right except the crying thing bc while i do think we could and should be some where different i will be where i am supposta be bc who has that kind of money for 8 years of private college. its comforting to know that tulane is referred to as jewlane bc of the mass of materialistic jews that go there so now i think pfff i dotn like materialistic jewish ppl so there for i dont like tulane.......sob. whatever i dont really know what i want with my life so i cant be disapointed. i dunno i am really happy or at least today but i think for awhile i will be i love my friends more than i could every express i realize sometimes i just watch them kinda like a weird stalker but i think i am just trying to take them in bc even though its awhile away i realize just how much i will miss their crazy spirits. i am trying to lighten up and let go enjoy the year bla bla bla all that stuff. but those friend that i love so much are gonna have to watch it bc i am sick of them moving in on my man... i know the fro is irresistible but hey its my turn....lol jk...kinda. ok i love you all MUAH MUAH MUAH
Current Mood:

jubilant

August 30th, 2004

06:57 pm
Anything that means something to you and is special must be worked for, nothing comes easily. and im a hard worker!
Current Mood:

optimistic

August 22nd, 2004

06:16 pm
welll so this weekend was satisfactory today is five months with matt yay it seems like longer. last night we went up to stuart and went on my aunts new boat with olivia and will and it was so nice and relaxing. it was such a beautiful night and we had a great dinner and i had such a great time w/ matt. yea so i like him ok goodnight
Current Mood:

loved
Current Music: smoky bear forest fire song

August 20th, 2004

11:34 pm
name that band and you get a prize

11:34 pm - becca and syd's greatest hits part 2
New Kids On The block,had a bunch of hits
Chinese food makes me sick.
And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the summer,for the summer
I like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that summer..
Since that summer

[Verse 1]

Hip Hop Marmalade spic And span,
Met you one summer and it all began
Your the best girl that I ever did see,
The great Larry Bird Jersey 33
When you take a sip you buzz like a hornet
Billy Shakespere wrote a whole bunch of sonnets
Call me Willy Whistle cause I can't speak baby
Sumthin in your eyes went and drove me crazy
Now I can't forget you and it makes me mad,
Left one day and never came back
Stayed all summer then went back home,
Macauly Culkin wasn't Home Alone
Fell deep in love,but now we ain't speakin
Michael J Fox was Alex P Keaton
When I met you I said my name was Rich
You look like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch

11:19 pm - BECCA AND SYD recover greatest songs ever
[Chorus:]
Everybody, everybody, let's get into it.
Get stupid. (Come on)
Get retarded (come one) , get retarded (yeah), get retarded.
Let's get retarded (ha), let's get retarded in here. Let's get retarded (ha), let's get retarded in here. (R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D)
Let's get retarded (ha), let's get retarded in here. Let's get retarded (ha), let's get retarded (woah, woah, woah) in here.
Yeah.
Oohhoo! Aha, oohhoo... in here... Cookoo, aha, cookoo, in here (R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D)... Cookoo, aha, let's get, cookoo, in here...ow, ow, ow...
ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya...

Runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin' (fade)

11:16 pm
POOOOOOP boys are stupid lets throw rocks at them
Current Mood:

jubilant
Current Music: fell in love with an alien

August 16th, 2004

04:48 pm
well.... this is my last year yay. i feel good about it. i know i am going to have so much fun this year w/ my friends and it will make me closer to the ppl i dont really talk to. love bonding! i am so greatful to be on court it is a big honor and i dont feel like i am the most deserving it makes me sad that my friends got left out. but it will be a fun experience anyways i will get closer with the girls on it so thats good. Jo is so funny in choir tryign to wip lianne and i in shape good luck i think we are hopeless. i am really happy for becca, sorry i had to spill the beans but your mom did too. she has a boyfriend and she is really happy and that makes me really happy and awwwww. you know who else is cute my boyfriend. i am so blessed to have him in my life, he just makes me so happy little things he doesnt even know. (eww gross i know i'll stop) and lisa once again saving my life i need to stop passing out when i am w/ you i think its bc your so hotttt! but yea everything is good and i just want to spend time w/ peter and JAB like i did last year i miss them
Current Mood:

amused
Current Music: ashley simpson